In November 2021, I was bound by fear and anxiety. I needed to know why I was here. Why I had to even be born was something I questioned. God told me that to find me, I had to find Him. I needed to understand His nature and who He is if I was going to have a chance at understanding who I was.
I went into seeking God on steroids. Every moment possible was spent reading the Word and listening to preaching, lectures, and teachings backed by the Word. I studied to the point of mental exhaustion many times, but once I got to this place I was in, I could not, nor can I now, learn enough. He has shown Himself to me in ways I cannot explain in this short writing, but I hope to share more over time.
Playing in the worship and prayer services hosted by The Father’s Refuge has grown me and helped to shape me in the calling God has placed on my life. Out of the time I’ve spent in the secret place, He’s grown me in the public place in my worship. Playing and singing at the Father’s Refuge was the first time God called me out to stand alone, leading worship. The Holy Spirit has grown me in leaps and bounds vocally, mentally, and emotionally every time I have had the opportunity to play and worship here. Whether it was an audience of one person or many people, as I poured out my heart to Him in Worship, I experienced His tangible presence. The days following my worship are when I seem to have the most “what’s not like Him” revelations. I’m forever grateful to God for placing me in the right atmosphere to grow in His presence.